month Two

Have you ever had those moments of where you're just like "ahh,  what,  what is going on.  Ahh, is this truly here,  ahh how am I doing this?"

Yep. Well One of those moments hit me daily.  But today, when I woke up I saw the date, life was heightened more then ever. I was just laying in my bed and laughing.

Laughing over the thought that all that has happened did, and that this is my life.

I checked my phone and found a video from my sister. I miss her more then words can say.  She makes me so proud. Watching the video of my sister signing my favorite song,  was the best was I could ever start off my third month. Her voice put my heart to rest it felt from the slight freak out at "oh my god the time is going too fast but 10 months seems so long"

I can not compare the first two months if one was better because I learned new things during each one. I now notice a difference in me. Self awareness is something which has grown leaps and bounds.

I am living fully and I don't know how to explain this,  but I am feeling more truly. Honestly maybe.

If the last month went by this fast,  the next will go even faster. I received an email from one of my best friends the other day and she reminded me to savor it. I can assure each one of you I am,  and I promise I will continue.

Thank you for reading and sticking with me through out all of this. Just to know there is are you all makes it easier, I do think know how to explain it but it does. Thank you to Oberlin Rotary, a thousand times thanks to each rotarians everywhere. This world isso vast and your kindness covers it all. 

I am currently in the car, driving to the cabin. I look at my family and I smile.  They just asked me why I am laughing. "this is happening"